She was my first. I was willing to start with her. To take a risk and commence because…because she was so beautiful. Because she inspired me and I figured there was no way it could go wrong. She made me feel like I was the only one in the room when I was with her. And so I started with her.
But now I see her and it doesn’t feel quite right. Like somehow it was amateurish. Like I wasn’t really seeing her. And so tonight, I tried again. Didn’t restart…but I reworked. I re-saw her. And she is still beautiful. Soft and strong and she has so many contrasts, and colours and shapes. I hope that I have done her proud. Her spirit and beauty justice.
I had to start with someone. I chose her. I chose her because she was so beautiful. I felt comfortable and confident with her beauty surrounding me.
So I chose her.